"For the time being, [however,] God has lightened your burden. For He knows that you are weak: and so, if there be one hundred of you who are patient in adversity, they should [be able to]' overcome two hundred; and if there be one thousand of you, they should [be able to] overcome two thousand by God's leave: for God is with those who are patient in adversity."
- Quran 8 : 66
"And most people don't work on their dreams, why? One is because of fear. The fear of failure, 'What if things don't work out?' And the fear of success, 'What if they do and I can't handle it?'
These are not risk-takers."
- Les Brown
"That's why I called my thing The Marathon. I'm not gon' lie and portray this ultimate poise, like I been had it figured out. Nah, I just didn't quit.
That's the only distinguishing quality from me and probably whoever else is goin' through this, or went through this, or is gonna go through this, is that I ain't quit.
I went through every emotion. I went through every emotion with tryna pursue what I'm doing."
- Nipsey Hussle
16. #GodLove : Fears Of Risk-Takers
— Car Dealership
Shaking ...
Taking deep breaths to
Prevent myself from shaking ...
My feet tremble
Lightly under the table ...
I tell jokes to mask
The nervousness
And prevent the escalation of
An anxiety attack ...
— Years Ago ...
"Are you okay?"
She's drenched in sweat
From another nightmare
I'd grown accustomed to this
A few months into our relationship ...
In her childhood and previous relationships
She had been sexually, physically
Mentally and spiritually abused
- Used -
And I crafted a soft space
For her emotions to flow through ...
She didn't know how to self-soothe ...
I tell her to squeeze my hand
Release your anxiety onto my palm
Allow some of your burdens for me to carry ...
— Driving To Lunch ...
I hadn't driven since the accident
And today's weather
Mirrors the same conditions ...
"Kibbs ... Settle ... Breathe ..."
As I drive to treat my sister to lunch
For waiting with me ...
I remember :
"Time is your greatest asset
In these moments ...
Breathe patiently ...
Kibbs ... Settle with me ...”
The rain drops and every
Car that passes me
Seem like they want harm me ...
And rationally ...
I know that's not the reality ...
What did Les Brown call fear?
False … Evidence … Appearing … Real …
— At The Cheesecake Factory
He introduces himself as Frank
And his daughter is named Lena
They are from Germany
And before they leave
We share pleasantries ...
They calm me
This distraction’s necessary
In this day filled with anxiety
It reminds me that God
Has ordained my steps in this journey
Of all the places we could have sat
God sits us near two people from Germany ...
We laugh, I practice my German
And they lighten my burdens
Before I pay to leave ...
My hearts beats a little faster
When I think of driving home
And once again facing my anxiety ...
— Driving Home
"Would you take the wheel
If I lose control?
If I'm lying here
Will you take me home?
Could you take care of a broken soul?
Will you hold me now?"
"Take Me Home" by Jess Glynne
Is the next song on my playlist
And I'm reminded
That the cure for this
Is radical acceptance
Being fully present
Removing all resistance
And embracing all as it is ...
If I arrive home that's wonderful
And if Allah decides to take me home
That's just as beautiful …
- K.S. Fort
The goal this year is to document as many memories as possible.
This is the series to the next book, “#GodLove : Healed”. This book will be available towards the end of October.
For those interested in books written in the past, feel free to read the Google Documents at this link.
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Enjoy the journey and live with intention …